agballa updates various musings (and an occasional prompt) on the intersections of creativity, wellness, ancestors, and maybe a little mama/auntiehood :)
agballa notes - issue 23 - who's holding your vision with you?
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blessed gregorian new year, folks. are we back from the void yet? if not, I definitely feel you. and also, I'm buzzingggg with this new energy. hbu? okay...onto today's issue :)...which isn't being sent on a wednesday cuz we have events on wednesday that I want you to know about! who's holding your vision?who's holding the vision you have for your self and the new/ancient world we're creating with you? sometimes the ones closest to us, the ones in our very inner circle, just don't get it. you ever describe your work or your dreams to them and they're like.... *crickets*? for me, at first, sharing my vision for agballa creatives, for the money and resources I want to bring in, the infrastructure I want to create, the ideas and values I hold with my beloveds closest to me was painful. they just didn't get it. I wanted so badly for them to hold the vision, its complexity, its nuance, its potency, with me, and they simply couldn't. and that's okay. this is a message that's been coming through loud and clear lately: some visions, ideas, thoughts aren't meant to be shared with everyone. just like you aren't for everyone, neither are your visions. this is why you need folks who CAN witness, hold, see your ideas. folks who not only understand the complexity, nuance, depth, and power of it, but feel it with you. this is why I do the work I do. this is why I show up. because every piece you create is a piece toward that vision. every hurdle you come across is one you cross over in service to that vision. we are seers for a reason. we are creators for a reason. the world our children and the next seven generations after us are going to live in the world we create through these visions, these ideas that are seeds now, but will bloom later. and this is why I believe in co-creating, in thought partnership, in co-weaving with another. cuz you are, I am. so, join me and the movement!this month's co-creation events: ❄️THIS WEEK: january 7, 10am & 5pm pacific, creating in kapwa co-creating session, free introducing @creating.in.kapwa the digital zine, issue 00: welcomefinally, if you follow me on Instagram you know I just launched a digital zine!! it is soooo messy this process of creating it BUT it's fun AF! I needed to reset my relationship with IG, in a way where it wasn't draining me, stealing all my time and attention, where I needed to remind my self what I actually *do* enjoy about the platform. I really do enjoy the design and visual aspect of it. and I know this is where a lot of creators hang out. so, please do follow if you love a zine vibe! I'm doing it in a 9-grid, a nod to back when you used to go to an IG profile and see 9 squares. I just like the number 9, so we're going with it! you folks, cuz I seriously love you so much and am so grateful for you, will be getting the zines in their entirety when I make them, without having to wait for the 9-day drip on IG. I haven't *quite* finished issue 00 yet, but you will get it when I do!
thank you for being here with me, in my process, in my all-over-the-placeness, in the construction site of creativity. thank you for the holding and feeling the vision with me, even if you might not understand everything right now cuz I am, indeed, all over the place :) feel free to hit reply to lmk how you're feeling in this january energy! more wintering thoughts and messages coming soon!! in gratitude and kapwa, If you ever feel the need to unsubscribe, I respect that. The button is below. Thank you for reading this far. |
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agballa updates various musings (and an occasional prompt) on the intersections of creativity, wellness, ancestors, and maybe a little mama/auntiehood :)
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