agballa notes - issue 21 - let's just not


hi hi!

so, I fell off the writing wednesdays groove. I got distracted by all the other things that pull a business owner’s attention: social media content, finding clients, interviews & connection calls, ā€œnetworkingā€ aka meeting new people calls, podcast applications, planning for 2026 (only cuz it’s exciting and I love to plan, not cuz gregorian new year), and most of all, client work!

and also tending to my almost 3yo, our 12yo, our home & family.

and winter and tending to my mental health, which ebbs and flows cuz breastfeeding and hormones, cuz a lot less sunlight.

writing this newsletter started to feel heavy, just as writing the ebook did. so I didn’t force my self to. I was going to try to put out a live winter reflection & reset, and then I decided to take my own advice and slow way the eff down and just not.

it’s not that I don’t want to remain consistent (I’ve proven to my self I can be), it’s not that I don’t remain devoted or that I don’t want to write this newsletter or the ebook anymore.

it’s that it’s time to reflect. to pause and look back and attune to what has been so that I can more clearly attune to what can and will be.

how have you been faring this december? what are you saying no to? what are you saying yes to?

I really do love this month. for the way it invites into darkness, into coziness, into introspection, into magic. I binge fantasy books and movies and these days I guess fun & feminine heist movies (think: ocean’s 8). I get more into pen to paper, painting, and doodling. taking baby out to play when there’s sunlight (cuz there’s still sunlight here in utah mid-december!!)

and when I feel into the gregorian year of 2026, I’m feeling like it’s a year of devotion, of showing up, of watching dreams we’ve held for years finally come into fruition.

but for now, we rest.

oh! but if you’d like to join, I’ve got another creating in kapwa co-working/co-creating gathering this evening at 4pm Pacific, 6pm Central, 7pm Eastern. come bring your doodles, your writing, the gifts you need to wrap and let’s cruise! you can sign up at the link or just reply to this email to lmk you're coming :)

bipoc only, thank you!

wishing you a nourishing, dark, and contemplative december/solstice.

loving you, kapwa-tao,
teresa
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I live, work, and mother as a settler on kānaka maoli land, the island of O'ahu. In support of landback initiatives and the community here, I want to amplify the work of
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